Effective Relaxation Methods

Just realised that i went on course on 23 Oct 2009 - Effective Relaxation method and it was the same instructor as the course i went 2 years ago on 22, 23 Oct 2007 - Stress Management Through Body Awareness. He is a Ang mo. This was a 1 day course. Super relax, doing yoga, breathing, tai chi and etc..... fun...

I need some peace within! head & heart.

Latest update! My FDW ran away!

Last Monday morning my FDW ran away from my house, really caught me off-guarded. Now the case is still investigating with MOM. Will update the detail when the case is closed. Just met the officer last evening. Problematic. First time since i have maids 6 years ago. Too smart!. If you wan to know this maid is from which agent and details, you can email me. It is not nice for me to disclose here at the moment. But once case is closed I will sure share everything. Still pretty upsad with her. I would say she is scheming. Too bad, this time she really made a wrong move bah. Haiz!!!!!!!!!

Updates!

This is the longest break from blogging since I started blogging 2 years ago. Because of too many unhappiness, i din want to blog. Now i want to just update about myself. I am now selling my flat and looking for a flat nearer to my brother house so that come next year when my girls are in primary school, i may do without domestic helper since the latest i have now is also giving me headache. It will be quite busy for me to blog, as i need to show my flat to buyers most of the evenings and weekend. However, my flat is located in a very good location, we din advertised just posted on internet and there are already 6 buyers came within a week. Now they are just waiting for my valuation to be out.

And my office project will come to an end mid of OCT! YEAH! I big relieve for me as these 2 years is a torture to me to do this project I resisted so much!

As the same time I m aso doing some small selling on the blog but I did not link it here. Sorry to say is only for ladies. Some close friends knew about my the other blog. heehee....still thinking if i should link-up here. But ladies if u do interested to know just email me. I really hope one day i can live on selling my work rather than working for other people. Too much politic.

Extremely buzy.

Lao zha Bor

This morning the so call devoted Buddhist came to our section to photocopy, i purposely walk to her and "suan" her, " your side copier spoilt issit?", her reply was not friendly last time, "we where got copier!". I walked off!.

If you dont have copier, where do u make photocopy before we shifted to here same floor as you (Lao zha bor)!

Now i super confirmed is her who tell-tale / back stab us loo.... u know when someone did something bad abt u, the expression and reaction is always different from normal time! That is the reaction and expression!

She always being so calculative towards us, always tell us our cost centre are different, then why do u use our copier?, our paper, our ink? Also like to meddle into our section stuff and staff. I wonder who is she! She is not even manager level loh.... just because she worked very long already!?

The management rather make her happy then giving us the 8 staff reasonable compensating! Is it worth to demoralise 8 staff to make 1 staff happy? And we are of different sections!

Shall call her LAO ZHA BOR since she is not young already hahahaha, though i will be old like her also!

Is Organisation too poor honour promises to staff?

We went back to work on Sunday, National Day for the stupid testing. We worked for more than 4 hours and we should be compensated 1 day off. The 1 day off was added to our leave system on Tuesday morning. But in the evening, section boss came to tell us, the HOD/management felt that we should not be giving 1 day off since we just exceeded by some 10 mins and tell us to GIVE AND TAKE AND NOT BE SO CALCULATIVE!

Is the Company too poor to honour promises, or

by giving us additional half a day they will have a piece of flesh cut off from the body or

they will lose alot of money!

I was too angry to tell my section boss, if we are calculative, we wouldnt have come to work from 4.30 to abt 9pm on Sunday, OUR National Day! And THE COMPANY cannot twist the word after we have done the work! And what about the time we travelled to and from HOME! I felt the company should not be so calculative and should GIVE AND TAKE! NOT US!

IT WAS A SUNDAY CUM NATIONAL DAY AND NIGHT!

However, we felt that this was tell-tale by a staff from another section to big boss that we should not be entitled to 1 day off and we all know who loh! ANY so sorry i m going to use nasty word: F U! and U are a devoted Buddhist YET u do such a low-graded things! It is not that we dint work more than 4 hours and what about we also startED early that day, just cannot finish!

F U to hell!!!!

IT IS NOT THAT I "LONG" FOR THE 1 DAY! I HAVE PLENTY OF LEAVE STILL HAVEN CLEAR!

I WORK FOR $$$, I DONT WORK FOR FREE!

HOW CAN GIVE AND TAKE!

I M NOT GOING BACK TO DO THIS TESTING ANYMORE ON NON-WORKING DAYS!

I THINK I WILL GO MAD SOON WITH SO MANY THING UNHAPPINESS AND NOW + A "MUM FACTOR", LIKE MY COUSIN SAID "MUM-FACTOR".............

I REALLY CANT THINK OF THE REASON FOR MY EXISTENT IN THIS WORLD!

Testing Testing

I just remembered last night, i have been doing testing for the past 2 years! OMG! is 2 years i have not been doing operations....and this testing suspposed to come to an end this OCT only! 2 more months to go and I have to work on public holidays, this National Day from 4.30 - 11.30 if we can finish. And another coming holiday in Sept, the Hari Raya! Damn!!! I hate it! I felt like I m con into doing this testing! 2 years ago i told bosses I dont want to do testing and I don like doing testing!, then they said, try lah!... try loh and my PB was affected, grading dropped and now worst, burnt my holidays!

I just feel cheated!!!! Well after doing testing for 2 years, I still dont like!. Met new boss last week for informal chat & told her i don want to do anymore testing after this, the 2nd phase coming...No No NO!

THIS YEAR IS JUST NOT MY YEAR! A TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE YEAR!

Buzy

Ya i have been quite buzy lately. Finally my new DW is here. Went to pick her up on Wednesday evening....hahaha looks different again from the bio-data, susposed to be fair, 1st look still dark to me, and very punky type....and 2nd look, ok, fairer la than those standard dark ones, errr still a bit punky, and she is those "tomboy" type leh....hahahaha...someone different this time....Pray harder for me please! I have 9 maids in 6 years! NON finished the contract of 2 years! May be a curse has been place on me! Some one just cant wait to see me suffer.... If there is a curse, PLEASE help me to break the curse!

That evening there, the agent update me about my previous maid. She was re-employed within a few days after i sent her to the agent. However, she is now back in Indo! The new employer also cannot tanhan her, i think much faster than me. So she is now back home, because according to the agent, she wanted to go back!...okok, at least I m not at fault! The only fault i have is to have choosen her! heehee.....

Desaru

This is the 1st time we went to Desaru Fruit Farm, have been wanting to go for quite sometime, until last weekend, then we can go. Not to our expectation, quite disappointed. Will not visit again i supposed!

Bad weather

Photos taken from my office, this is afternoon about 4pm last week.

My African Violets

From this pot

to this pot.
too over-crowded

CBD on Sat.

Last Sat when i was in office working. That was abt noon time. No cars, no people. so quiet. Ghost town on weekends.

Difficult

Most Difficult year of my life! Since my brain and heart are missing in action!

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I m feeling like -------------------------------------------------------------------now

~~ DONT ALWAYS FIND FAULT WI MI :<

I m not your "fault-finder".
Dont blame me for everything that dont go right for you & your families.
Dont blame me if the stupid dog is being put to sleep!
Dont blame me for their misfortunes!
Dont blame me if you cannot sleep!

I m not a god or have super natural power to command all these events!

All i have is I have no feeling for all these events!

I just want to live my life without all these intruder and upset my life upside down!

Wife Drive, Husband Heart attack?!!!

I have a lame weekend. I was working on Sat, because of the testing, so we went back to work on sat. I find it lame is because, this testing was actually done once on a weekday and the IT ppl insist we must do the testing on weekend. What is the different between weekday and weekend?

I have a lame Sunday because, I have car but I cant drive yet other people can drive my car to fetch people I dont like! LAME!!! AND IS MY CAR! My car is not use for car-pooling? Is ok if you drive my car to practise your skill or drive other people, but not this particular one! Because she is rude, no manners!!!

Have you come across people who u meet on Chinese new year, the 1st 2 days, and treat you as invisible, not even a word of "hello", or "GONG XI FA CAI" and carry a BLACK FACE, Yes, I have and this is the person, worst still she is a "U grad"! Received so many years of educations yet you cant even greet someone who is your senior on the most important time of the year! Well I m not ABC, neither is she, so dont act!

Though i m not that old and old fashion, but I m very particular on Chinese New Year, because I m a Chinese. If you are not willing to greet then dont appear, stay at home, why bother to come with black face? Because of RED PACKETS!!!

With this type of people, she dont fit to be fetched using my car!

Here, most of the husband dont really like their wives to drive the car if they have only 1 car. Most of the time husband with have "a heart attach" feeling whenever their wives on the wheel! Unlike Malaysia, we can live without a car, thats why wives here seldom drive. And I have my licences longer than I m married. Lame right!

My life is just full of lame and endless "小人", may be my "Gui ren" is no longer around to guard me!

MY LIFE IS ALWAYS BEING UPSET BY "3RD PARTIES"!

"When we get married, we won’t know what lies ahead until we hit the waves of life at sea." ~~~ I have enough of waves!

My money plant

Stage 1 in water

Stage 2 in my weath pot

Now (today)

African Violet

Weather on Thurs afternoon

Forget!

Ö : ~~~ The most beautiful future will always depend on the need for forgetting the past. You will not be able to go from the past in life as long as you will not have overcome the errors of the past and all that hurt you. ~~~ Ö

I like these, received as a powerpoint.

Our life cannot always be full of happiness but it can always be full of love!

He who is blind to the view of our souls, will not enjoy and see life as it is.

The more you plan, the less likely you will experience chance, therefore live life to the fullest.

A true friend is one who holds your hand and thus touches your heart.

When we get married, we won’t know what lies ahead until we hit the waves of life at sea.

Life is reality without an eraser!

Nothing in the future, will correct those moments that you have missed in the past.

Don’t waste time with someone who won’t support you in time of need.

Always look at the bright side of life. If there is no bright side, wait until the future turns to light.

Don’t cry over what has happened in the past, but be happy that you could enjoy the moment.

Always remember the words from a true friend:
“I’ll be there for you”

Work, as if you don’t need money.

Love, as if nobody has hurt you.

Dance, as if nobody was watching you.

Sing, as if nobody was listening.

Live, as if this was paradise on earth.

Don’t dispair, the nicest things will happen to you when you least expect them...

“Everything that happens, happens for a reason!”

PC Show

The PC show start tomorrow at Suntec City, I will be going too, to get a mini photo printer. Recently, I went to develop less than 10 pieces and cost me $0.60 each! WOW, is very expensive! Then i asked around, my colleagues have a sony and canon mini printer, after calculating the refill pack, it cost about only $0.30 or less per piece, and quality is quite good too!

I am looking at this model Selphy CP780 , hope can find some good bargain though i cant go on the last day. Now trying to find review on this product....

Looking forward!

Life will be more carefree without marriage?

I have been married for a very long time, given my age now. About 13 years, i already cannot remember how is life without the burden of marriage and children!. Of course now I envy! No relationship to think, to worry, to be sad, to be angry, do what i want to do, spend whatever i want to spend, go wherever i want to go!

I m not a person who like to be tied down by something, whatever thing it can be, i will feel very resisted. What's more I m not very happy in the recent months, the feeling is strong, and i can only confide with my friends, close ones.

Sometimes, i really want to break thru, i m like suffocating within! And no one can help, only myself, because this is the choice i chosen 13 years back, if i want to break thru, i need to choose again. Of course, 13 years ago, the choice is very easy, but not now, the choice is very difficult and tough!

Why must i be ended up doing this type of choices!? Why my life cannot be easier? Why the so call "god" cannot give me a better life, not so tough, not so emotional one! My life is dam tough to walk thru'! Tough and hard! Of course, i know there are much more poeple life out there is worst! I just need to let off! May be i will suffocated to death within! So just me suffer!

I need to tell myself " MY Life is way too short to dwell on things that no longer matters. Must let go & move on! ", let go things that i want (btw, the things i wanted, are priceless, and very easy, no need money de, just use mouth to say out only and may be with some little gestures) but i will not get here, move on to search for other goals for my life.

Must always tell myself, there are better things in my life to go for, dont stop here!

These few months, my life is like riding a rollercoaster, and i m like being throw off the ride, losing my balance in life. First time ever! Now trying very hard get up and continue riding or stopping the ride or to quit the ride! haiz!!!!!! Very very sad....

I really miss my grandfather, he passed away 12 years ago! He is the only one in this earth can console me, can help me up! Not even my dad can do it though he is gone too! My grandfather has never come to my dream, never, may be i should give him a passport to come back here, so he come to my dream and see me and talk to me!

Facebooking

Lately have been buzy with alots of things...maid, housework, bugs, some personal stuff, and newly acquired "facebooking"....hahaha.... too bad we cant play in office lah....so many nights rush home, on pc, log-on....and doing some housework in the meantime! Tough!!! but funny hahaha.... my farm town game is really fun. Now I know why my colleagues can facebooking for hours during weekends! and i not only play game i also upload photos there, cos is faster than blog! While of course I will still continue my blogging, just that you may see me here less often hahaha!

My children also have accounts with facebook and they are playing more games than me! Pet society, and restaurant city!

She is gone!

Finally, I have sent her back to agent on Monday! Such a relieve! but i will be busy till the next helper is here. However, i have no idea when will the new helper comes because, she doesnt has a passport. According to agent, they ever wait for 2.5 months for maid that do not have passport! Just pray harder for mine to get hers within the next couple of days and the necessary arrangement will require up to 2 weeks!

I was on leave yesterday to sping clean the house and throw away my children's mattress, pillows, etc cos we found there were bed bugs and my poor victoria was the worst victim!. I have no idea where these bugs from, we suspect was from her belongings. Just 1 months plus and their room was infested with bugs! really a big big headache. Haiz.........

Most "POWERFUL" maid I ever had!

I have this maid since 15 April, but after 3 weeks, I have the intention to return her to the agent. Now passed 1 month, my intention is clear. She has to go!

I never had a maid as irresponsible, lazy and "stupid" as her. Usually I will not use this word but here i really cant stand her. For the past week that i was sick, I dont wish to speak with her. Just not to let her make me more ill.

She is one who do not want to remember dates, day & time. On the first day, A schedule was given to her, as she need to pick & fetch my children at different time on different days. What time to do what chore. However, she choose her time to pick my kids ( or rather she dont see time to go fetching them).

On the fourth Sunday, she came to ask me, "mdm, today Sunday, i mop the floor?" On the fifth week, she dint even bother to wash our clothes (ie to put into the washing machines) and she din even bother to ask me if these full load of clothes need to be washed. I do it myself. My mum asked her a few days later, why she din wash the clothes or asked? Her reply :" I MUST ASK?"

Even housekeeping was also a mess. She cant put back things at their original position after cleaning. Making bed was bad. Happy, she stack 2 pillows together, not happy, the pillow is still at their original position after she make the bed, could be the pillow standing on the wall, or pillow at the bed end. Terrible!

She gave me an impression that she is one that will steal food! And i told mum abt it, finally one day my mum found that she indeed steal food! Well, it is not that she is not given food. Whenever, we din cook, she will always have a pack of food tabao from food store however, we realised that she always never finish her food and throw away. How can she finish a pack of food, say 3 dishes & rice within 5 mins! And why she want to steal food!

Once, my mum gave her those tibits from my daughter's school, as there are friends' BD and give goodies bags contain sweets and tibits to all the friends, because I dont really like my children having unhealthy stuff, we gave it to the maid else we will gave to other people. Who knows she finished the whole pack within an hour! OMG!. My mum asked her why she finished everything within such a short period, later u fall sick how? She said, NEVERMIND! HEY! What do u mean by NEVERMIND! I m responsible for u illness! SUCH a PAIN!

I m 2 today here!

Today I m 2 years old here!. It has been 2 years since I started my blogging, and I enjoyed it thought has been blogging much lesser. Thanks to the invention of blogging, facebooking, we can be connected to people all over the world without having to spend much!

Yeah!

The Loyal Wife

The Loyal Wife

There was a man who had worked all of his life,
had saved all of his money, and was a real miser
when it came to his money.

Just before he died, he said to his wife, 'When I
die, I want you to take all my money and put it
in the casket with me. I want to take my money
to the after-life with me.'

And so he got his wife to promise him with all of
her heart that when he died, she would put all of
the money in the casket with him.
Well, he died .. . .

He was stretched out in the casket, his wife was
sitting there in black, and her friend was sitting
next to her. When they finished the ceremony,
just before the undertakers got ready to close
the casket, the wife said, 'Wait, just a minute!'

She had a box with her, she came over with the
box and put it in the casket.

Then the undertakers locked the casket down,
and they rolled it away.

Her friend said, 'I know you weren't fool enough
to put all that money in there in the casket with
your husband.'

The loyal wife replied 'Listen, I can't go back on
my word. I promised him that I was going to put
that money in that casket with him.'

'You mean to tell me you put that money in the
casket with him !!! ?'

'I sure did' said the wife. 'I got it all together, put
it into my account and wrote him a cheque.
If he can cash it, he can spend it.'

Moral of the story:

*Women are cleverer than Men* ................

Tears In Heaven

Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,'Cause I know
I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please,
begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

I m finally down!

After so many days, weeks & months of worrying, fear, sadness, I m finally beaten! Down with sore throat infection, headache and fever of course! But seriously i dont like to visit the doctor during these critical period, cos i need to take temp, wear mask before i can enter the clinic. And the doc see me in another room, not his usual consultation room....sigh....hazi....i dont have H1N1. Ok,ok,ok, must understand doctors and their staff fear also, though now is yellow colour.

YOU WIN!